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Chinese Food With A Hint Of Blood

Sun, 30 Aug 2009 21:16:19 GMT

went to church today.

ate chinese food<calories??>

did my homework for college.

went to the gym for an hour weightlifting<calories burned??>

threw up in the gym bathroom until i saw blood.

yummy.

calorie intake-??

im guessing 0. but thats if im lucky.

i only eat on the days when i have to workout for gym class. so i guess thats good.

how bout some photos?

sorry some of them are upside down and that some are gross but im starving for perfection. i just have longer to go than most.

Sick

Wed, 15 Jul 2009 01:20:20 GMT

for the millionth time. hopefully itll bring some loss.

last time i checked

174.4.

but ive had diarrhea and vomiting for the past two days.

theres always hope.

and faith.

I NEED HELP &/OR THINSPIRATION!i!

Sat, 28 Feb 2009 05:53:13 GMT

like super bad.

i feel like the fattest fuck in the world.

no one gives a shit about someone they cant see through layers upon layers of fat so i guess that would be me.

no more.

I CANT FUCKING TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!

rehab made me gain 50 lbs.

115 to 165...disgusting.

then i got out, and was watched 24/7. now im a whoppin 171 pounds.

i should be shot for being so fat.

i NEED to lose.

i NEED support.

i NEED help.

I NEED ANA/MIA.

NO FOOD UNTIL IM HER.

FAST BEGAN AT 12 AM-MIDNIGHT.

somehow i will do this again, i will be 115 AGAIN and SOON.

peace. love. SKiNNY.

AShleiGH

2009: New Year, Same Story...

Tue, 06 Jan 2009 23:34:54 GMT

So tonight I begin fasting at 12:00 AM so technically it will be January 7th.

see how long it last.

liquids/cigarettes/probably some drugs

and thats it.

i guess this really is private now since no one comments anymore=(

Christmas time

Thu, 25 Dec 2008 06:08:20 GMT

i love how no one comments me anymore

checkout my myspace i guess

http://www.myspace.com/bamxthatsxhawtt

peace

merry christmas

<5 newest pic of me

It's been FOREVER...

Tue, 09 Dec 2008 15:04:14 GMT

i miss this journal so much&&& all of you guys too.

i was in a car accident in july. broke my femur, but other than that ive been okay.

heres some photos of the wreck:

we completely obliterated this mailbox

we snapped this powerpole in half and it landed on top of the car.

dumbass who was driving the car(Megan, my ex friend)

my side of the car, the engine and the dash were sitting in my lap.

i was the passenger.

lifes screwy.

CW:166.6

Tue, 22 Jan 2008 02:45:02 GMT

EDIT

so life fuckin sux.

i made a yr and two days and i fucked up today, i cut.

what the hell is my problem, i got high all weekend and had a threesome and got a hickey and ive got to go to court tomorrow for the shoplifting thing.

im fucked up.

:jan 19th:

todays my dads bday,

intake pathetic.

worked out for an hour today.

and appearently sex burns like 729 cals or st.

so i did that last night.

times two.

im a whore.

im such a wreck,.

i dont know which way is up or which way is down anymore.

guys are playing with my head,

my weight is fluctuating, problems at work.

bleh.

today is my one yr anniversary of not cutting myself.

yay me.

picturesss.<5

my bad habit

i needed to ash.

then just me,

im infatuated with my eyes

my eyes look like storm's fromx-men in this pic. sorta.

this is my fav.

peace out girl scout.

CW: 170.2

Mon, 14 Jan 2008 01:49:43 GMT

so in case you didnt know i ballooned over the holidays to a whopping 188.4 pounds.

its disgusting.

but since december ive lost 18.2 so im not doing too shabby i supposed but hell i miss my weight before i was in the hospital last year, 135.

im getting below that.

i got a membership to the YMCA so ive been working out like on a regular 3-4 days a week basis.

intake was horrible im not even going to post it.

but i did have a 9 hour shift today at work so i guess, i dunno, i need to stop making excuses.

coffee and cigg diet tomorrow i suppose?

sounds good to me.

well i thank you for your support.

peace &&& love

if my face is a portrait of whats inside, you best break the damn mirror...

Thu, 03 Jan 2008 03:40:41 GMT

intake

b- hot cocoa

l-orange

d- taco casserole

s- trail mix

id suppose 800 cals.

but see i have a stomach ulcer appearently and all my dinner went into the toilet.

so id say minus 300

then i went to the YMCA and did an hour water aerobics class

minus at least 200

i also swam 100 yds

minus about 100

then i did my regular workout routine, this ab machine, this step machine, this tricep machine, this innerthigh/hip machine, this hamstring/butt machine, and the sauna, about 2 hours worth all together.

at least minus 450.

so all together,

-250 cals.

hell . thats lame. im fasting tomorrow, besides i have to work 4:30- 10:30 so only liquids and cigarettes.

i got my fone back today. and might be getting my car back next week.

incase i forgot to mention i got grounded from everything because i was arrested last friday at walmart for shoplifting.

its gay but i got to go to juvenile court.

then who knows what will happen.

bleh.

lifes a bitch.

2008

Tue, 01 Jan 2008 06:48:32 GMT

woohoo

im grounded for like forever because i got arrested for shoplifting and i have to go to juvenile court.

i got my nose pierced.

um, i passed all my classes.

im also grounded from the scale so idk how much i weigh.

i miss my support from you guys.

guess i kind of lost track.

stay strong.