Currently Jagged Little Pill By Alanis Morissette Not the Doctor see related

I NEED HELP &/OR THINSPIRATION!i!

like super bad.

i feel like the fattest fuck in the world.

no one gives a shit about someone they cant see through layers upon layers of fat so i guess that would be me.

no more.

I CANT FUCKING TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!

rehab made me gain 50 lbs.

115 to 165...disgusting.

then i got out, and was watched 24/7. now im a whoppin 171 pounds.

i should be shot for being so fat.

i NEED to lose.

i NEED support.

i NEED help.

I NEED ANA/MIA.

NO FOOD UNTIL IM HER.

FAST BEGAN AT 12 AM-MIDNIGHT.

somehow i will do this again, i will be 115 AGAIN  and SOON.

peace. love. SKiNNY.

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AShleiGH

Currently A Million Little Pieces By James Frey see related

2009: New Year, Same Story...

So tonight I begin fasting at 12:00 AM so technically it will be January 7th.

see how long it last.

liquids/cigarettes/probably some drugs

and thats it.

i guess this really is private now since no one comments anymore=(

Christmas time

i love how no one comments me anymore

checkout my myspace i guess

http://www.myspace.com/bamxthatsxhawtt

peace

merry christmas

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It's been FOREVER...

  i miss this journal so much&&& all of you guys too.

i was in a car accident in july. broke my femur, but other than that ive been okay.

heres some photos of the wreck:

we completely obliterated this mailbox

we snapped this powerpole in half and it landed on top of the car.

dumbass who was driving the car(Megan, my ex friend)

my side of the car, the engine and the dash were sitting in my lap.

i was the passenger.

lifes screwy.

CW:166.6

EDIT

so life fuckin sux.

i made a yr and two days and i fucked up today, i cut.

what the hell is my problem, i got high all weekend and had a threesome and got a hickey and ive got to go to court tomorrow for the shoplifting thing.

im fucked up.

:jan 19th:

 todays my dads bday,

intake pathetic.

worked out for an hour today.

and appearently sex burns like 729 cals or st.

so i did that last night.

times two.

im a whore.

im such a wreck,.

i dont know which way is up or which way is down anymore.

guys are playing with my head,

my weight is fluctuating, problems at work.

bleh.

today is my one yr anniversary of not cutting myself.

yay me.

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my bad habit

this is my fav.

peace out girl scout.

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